Esta noche

En esta noche estoy pensando
Sobre todo lo que he vivido
Tratando de encontrar sentido
A todo lo que está pasando

Es imposible lograr el sueño
Sabiendo las cosas que deseo
no es algo más que etéreo
Porqué aún no soy el dueño

Yo lo tengo claro en mi mente
No sé como puedo conseguirlo
No quiero ideas solamente

Me quedan muchas cosas pendientes
Pido fuerzas para lograrlo
E iluminación para mi mente

You were the first one

You were the first one
To give me guilty pleasure
I can't forget that day
I was so afraid and anxious
You were ready to go and i couldn't stop

It was like heaven
I have enjoyed
I know it wasn't right
But
I liked it

It was just like a drug
I wanted more and more
I became so addicted
I learned to feel different ways
But i know i was destroying myself

I wanted more and more
You were so perfect
besides
You were destroying me
I liked it

You were the first one
But i wasn't the only one receiving
tasting your blood
i was so blind because of the pleasure
Besides you were more than pleasure to me

Following

Changing everything doesn't help
New realities don't change my situation
Because the feeling is there
Always comes darkness from my mind

I don't know how to react
about this feeling that is following me
I try to clean my thoughts
But it always appears

I try to enjoy every second
I try to create something new
And i try to feel like i can do anything
But, there's something following me

I don't know how to react
about this feeling that is following me
I'm praying for my health
but it doesn't help

-- I'm starting to believe that my destiny is to pay someones debt --
-- I guess i have no choice but to live until i die paying this fucking debt --
-- I know it's on my mind, but it's too strong for me, i can't control it ---
-- WHY IS THIS FEELING FOLLOWING ME AROUND MY LIFE?

Don't expect too much from me

They said i was a saint
Or at least someone incorruptible
And that's what i tought once
But life taught me they weren't right

I was like anyone in this world
With feelings and weakness
So don't expect too much from me
because i'm not saint

Sorry if you feel deception about me
But i can't forget my feelings
Sometimes i'm happy and sometimes i'm sad
And that's it

I was like anyone in this world
With illusions and disillusions
So don't expect too much from me
because i'm not pure

Sorry if i'm not what you expect to be
But it's not your fault
It's my life experience about the world
but i'm doing the best i can

Wrong Choice

These days i've thinking about the day
You decided to trust me something deep and dark from your heart
I was telling you one of my fears
but when i heard you, you make feel scared about this life

While i was hearing you, i didn't know how to react
I want to erase that terrible truth from my mind
and i was thinking about your oblivion
And i have made that choice

I wasn't prepared to hear something dark
And i feel useless as a person to watch you like that way
I didn't know what to do, i just wanted to forget everything
But i can't

I don't know if could make you understand if you're walking on the wrong path
I guess you're enjoying the way you're living now
But the truth is that i don't understand how you feel when you're alone

And i know that i have made wrong choice
Giving you my back knowing about your truth
That's not something i should do, beside my justice feelings
I'm not a saint to tell you if you're right or wrong

So please forgive me
You're just something that i don't understand enough
But you're something that i love you
and i don't wanna loose you
I want you by my side
So please forgive me about my Wrong Choice

I want to give up

Sometimes i see that i'm not like them
It doesn't matter if only i could get
That water

But it's not easy for me,
The whole life has been complicated to get a drink
from that water

I don't understand why it's so hard to me
And too much easy for them
It's like a stick in my soul

As the time goes on
And my skin is ageing
I just want to give up
Because i feel like
i'm being punished for something
i haven't done in my life

I want to give up
i don't want to drink it anymore
I want to give up
I don't care what they say
I want to give up
I've been hearing the same hopes
I want to give up
I lost my faith right now

That Picture

I remember me on that picture
Pure and innocent
Full of big dreams
Without desilussion on my face

Now 4 years have passed
And the picture remains there
But my face is so different
it reflects my desilussion

I was young there
Now i'm young and sad
Because i haven't received
The thing i once paid for

And now all my dreams
Seem to fade away
As the time goes on
But when i look that picture

I am in that picture
I was full of dreams
I was so fucking happy
Right now, i'm so angry
I feel disrespected by life
But i was once there
Like in that picture
I have faith to be there again

Where is my world?

Every day i ask myself
Where's my band, Where's my family
Are we high or are we low?
Sometimes i don't understand

My life is so rare
Sometimes i think that's my line
But next day, the line is not here
Even the elders don't have the answer for me

Sometimes they say we're from the low line
but, sometimes they say you gotta stay away from the low ones
So...

That's why sometimes i feel like i belong to nothing
I try to be happy with the highs and the lows
But i can't find hapiness in both
So, where is my world?

Now i'm alone and i gotta find my way
I've got to choose where's my world now