I want to give up

Sometimes i see that i'm not like them
It doesn't matter if only i could get
That water

But it's not easy for me,
The whole life has been complicated to get a drink
from that water

I don't understand why it's so hard to me
And too much easy for them
It's like a stick in my soul

As the time goes on
And my skin is ageing
I just want to give up
Because i feel like
i'm being punished for something
i haven't done in my life

I want to give up
i don't want to drink it anymore
I want to give up
I don't care what they say
I want to give up
I've been hearing the same hopes
I want to give up
I lost my faith right now