Being true with myself

I don't know how to love
But i did my best
And money was the first thing i have in mind
Money is power
Money is succesfull in this world
So i want to give her the feeling of achievement

You always told me don't be in trouble
But you don't see my true problem
I don't feel the love i need to have
Your love is not enough for me
I just want to feel a complete person
So i was determined to give it all

Now the times has changed
And i give you the reason about my past
But please stop judging me
I know my mistakes
But i have my reasons that you'll never understand
Please stop it

I want to walk my path
I learned from past
I want to let you know that i want to be free to choose
I need to fall to be a true man
Thanks for your advices but i need to find the answers
that you can't give me