Wrong Path of Hapiness

Every day i try to find the hapiness in the opposite
But i don´t have the same luck as other ones
So i start to find new ways to create the feeling
But every day i live i'm feeling weaker

I blame the gods because of this fate
I blame my fate because of this luck
But there´s no other choice at least for me
Because i forget everything while i'm enjoying the false hapiness

I know it´s not real the way i'm living
I know this is an ilussion created from my greed
But it's the only way to forget the emptiness
I guess you'll say that's sick

I hope someday my fate let me feel for once how is the true hapiness